Prepare your banquet

DON'T WAIT FOR THEIR CRUMBS

When you honour people, you give your time, you offer your whole heart and in return, you receive a crumb, a brief text, a scrap of their attention, a moment of their time, doled out like they are doing you a favour. You feel the pain, your heart aches. Yet, you treasure that crumb, you analyze it, you build gigantic castles in the sky around its meaning, you convince yourself, that, "this is enough" for now, "soon, there will be more." Unfortunately, there will never be more, there will only be more crumbs.

It is high time you stop waiting for their crumbs or you will continue to starve in a palace of your own making, built on a foundation of scarcity. You were not born to feast on the leftovers of someone else's attention. You are not a beggar at a king's table, you are the king, everything belongs to you, the grain, the fire, and all the recipes for your own fulfillment. You do not need the validation of a closed mind, you only need the nourishment of your own mind.

Every moment you spend waiting to be filled by the generosity of another, is a moment wasted in ignoring the banquet you have the capacity to lay for yourself. That energy you pour into decoding their silence, can be channelled towards something more beneficial to you. The hours you spend waiting for their attention, can be switched to the company of someone who cherish your presence.

You are worth more than half-hearted commitments, you are worth more than mere compliments, you are a star that need to shine. Do not settle for the bare minimum. Shoot for the moon, and even if you miss, you can hit the stars. Their crumbs does not take you anywhere, you don't need it. Set your own table, pull up a chair and enjoy the taste of your own freedom. Your feast is set and waiting for you, don't dare settle for less.

To a better you, Kamikun John.